Today I was grateful for the way in which my heart has been worked on and being renewed.

 

The way in which the more “negative” parts of my personality such as ego, pride, and impatience have been decreasing and allowing the “real me” to flourish. Someone who is unhindered by these negative emotions that weigh us all down.

 

The Camino has made me more determined about the power of being able to take each day as it comes and shifting plans according to needs. The ONLY thing that stands in our way most times to be able to succeed are our own thoughts and emotions which can ultimately sabotage our entire life journey.

 

I had to overcome mine many times during this Camino. Sometimes I stopped and got much more rest than I anticipated and potentially be “left behind” simply because I could not keep the pace of my companions at times, and more so toward the end of the Camino when my body had been pushed beyond its limits.

 

I remember looking down at my feet and feeling so much gratitude toward them because although they felt like they could explode at any moment, they were still carrying the entire weight of me, my pack, and any burdens I had left on my mind.

 

And so I began to shed the weight. Mentally at first, then physically whenever possible until my pack was left lighter than any time before. But I knew that it was also because so had my mind.

 

This was the day I also decided that I would send my whole pack up ahead of me. I knew that my body was beaten down and worn enough to the point that if I wanted to finish the Camino, I would have to do so without carrying any additional weight. This was very symbolic in many ways, but I’ll talk more about that tomorrow. For now? I am grateful for these companies that offer these services and for the ability to now get rest. 

 

Tomorrow is the day I finish this adventure.